It dawned on me the morning after the Super Bowl - I've reached the point of no return, I'm too far gone.
I've never quite fit into American consumerist society but now it's worse.
I haven't watched television in almost a year, and I typically don't read mainstream news either. I watch odd documentaries on Netflix, read a few books, and a lot of blog articles. I prefer to spend my time off of work on a bicycle, behind a camera lens, in the kitchen making smoked salmon, or on a walk with my wife and dogs. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm very out of touch with modern American culture.
Even though I haven't watched an entire football game in years, I typically enjoy watching a few minutes of the playoff games and try to catch part of the Superbowl starting with the half-time show. I indulge in a little junk food, a cold beer, and for a few minutes pretend that I'm a typical American. It didn't happen this year. I'm afraid I'm too far gone. I tuned in to the half-time show (streaming on the internet) and just could not find myself entertained by lip-syncing and commercial and insincere choreography so I went and did something else. I sat back down a few minutes later and watched a few minutes of the game. I found it hard to get excited about watching strangers running around on a field - what is wrong with me? My last hope - maybe I would see a few commercials that made me laugh. Strike three. The commercials were depressing. It made me think of what fools we are to let big business convince us of what we 'need' to be happy.
Yes, I'm afraid I've reached the point of no return. I no longer have a desire to fit in, to live through watching others participate in life, or to have someone else tell me how to fill the holes in my life with material things. I'm too far gone.
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